Mr. Right...Mr. Wrong...Mr. Right?

At the age of twenty four, I don't know whether I should be proud to say (maybe I should) that I'm a member of the NBSB or the No Boyfriend Since Birth community.

I never thought of having a boyfriend during high school. It was only during college that I realized that I was all grown up and ready to get into the wings of romance in case someone comes knocking on the door, especially after all my friends began having relationships of their own. Unfortunately (or I should say fortunately....) I finished college without getting involved with some guy. There was a time during college when I think it was because of my disability (I have cerebral palsy--my walking being affected) that makes men turned off, or maybe it was my high standards regards to a possible partner.

A lot has happened after college--well not exactly on my life.

I remember when a friend once told me to go ahead with the guy who comes pursuing me, accepting everything about him-faults and all (knowing of my being choosy). She was right on the fact of acceptance. Love makes you accept someone unconditionally-question is what if I really can't fall in love with the one person who did come? Then another friend approached me contradicting what the other had said, saying :"Every girl is choosy. It's okay to set standards after all our future partnership depends on it."

A year after college made me realize how lucky I am to not get into any relationships....

I did fell for someone during college. I first saw him as someone boastful and arrogant that I felt annoyed but in every moment that he spends his time alone-I saw humility, and in few times he turns my way-I saw kindness. In the end I learned to accept him wholly, unfortunately he has a girlfriend and I was but an onlooker.....but it did me good.....

Where or who is Mr. Right?

With regards to my friends' advices regarding "partners", I realize that their opposing opinions can meet, it was but a matter of learning that heartaches are not for crying but for smiling--and I don't need to get into a relationship to learn that. Love is the key factor to everything.

In a talk show I watched, where they were discussing about "Mr. Right", opinions such as change, inspiration, and conflicts arise. These reminded me of something--or someone.

True love inspires someone to be a better person. It motivates a person to do the right things and see life in a broader concept that let's you determine right from wrong rather than joining it all together. It makes you realize the blessings at hand and that which is still to come. It is not because you are loved but rather you are loving that makes the change-for the good. Acceptance is rather the hope that transition is bound to come your way-or I should say, accepting one's faults makes you see the good in a person.

On the other hand getting mixed up with the ideas of romance gets you in conflict with the world! (figure of speech....). You tend to get yourself in conflict not only with your friends (worst-family), but also with yourself, worrying over the things you did wrong that is hurting others because of your declaration of love.

Setting standards is not harmful so is accepting a persons limitations. Accepting actually makes someone meet the standards.... Right now, I'm just praying that God's will is to give me someone who complements me....

The Life Lived by Others

There are those who smile....

There are those who cry....

Sad but true--life is difficult and it's getting more difficult for others.

I have seen a lot of dramas on TV showing poverty at it's worst, or have they? Well, watching dramas might make you cry but wait 'till you get a load on documentaries by those at public affairs whether the kapamilya's or the kapuso's--then there are also those made by students as their works are shown on DOKYU.

Amateur or professional videos are not of importance as long as people are informed....

Pictures of a family re-cooking food from the garbage pile while sheltered under the overpass.

Batang bakaws, stealing fish from the market to sell.

Malnourished kids, getting sicker and sicker, 'till they are breathless.

Poverty, an issue that seems to never fade and getting worst.

It is like a transferable disease. A disease that gives birth to illnesses like prostitution, robbery, and murders. A disease that seems so hard to cure.

There are times I ask myself who should the blame be placed on: the government? the rich and mighty? or the poor themselves? It is like adding insult to injury, yet sad but true, everybody has there share....

There are the corrupted in the government. There are intimidators among the mighty. There are the lazy among the poor. Now tell me whose fault is it.

This is one issue that I believe will never be solved if we all try to look for someone to blame rather than looking for the solution. A motivation. An action. Playing deaf has made us all useless, what more if we act blind and crippled. People who can't even look at other's difficult situation is more ignorant than those deprived of learning. Hope is just within our grasp--all we have to do is channel through our FAITH.

Life can be unpredictable at times. But it is still up to us if we wish to wage a good fight. There are times when we think life is going downhill for us yet let's take a moment to see what we have all along--God has given enough blessings for us to enjoy....and to share.